Saturday, March 29, 2008


I am driven to create. This is an interesting topic. Notice I did not say driven to paint. I am a painter. You would think I would long and lust for every moment of studio time to become immersed in color and paint media. I am not. I have just realized even though I am a painter, I should widen my perceptions and consider myself a CREATIVE. I know this to be true because I am creative every day. I have to be. This neurotic urge is in my genes. There is not a day that goes by in which I am not making, building, or creating in some way, fashion, or form. It is a compulsion.
This topic came to mind because I haven’t been painting in the past few weeks. I started feeling very edgy and agitated about this. I would walk into my studio and scowl. Then I started to account for my time and realized I have been very creative in the past month! It just didn’t take the form of pushing paint around. I have been writing blog posts and making videos. I have worked on my website and researched new art ideas. In fact, I have felt drained from producing.
Our reservoir of creative energy does have a limit. For me at least, I couldn’t paint all day every day 24/7. Sometimes I get zonked just from spending hours at my day job talking and thinking ART, ART, ART all day long. On days like that, I prefer to write or create on the computer when I get home from work. Also, I have a need for creative variety. I get just as much satisfaction from writing an article or fiddling on Photoshop as I do painting a painting. I realized the media isn’t an issue. It is the creative act that gives me delight. I guess this is similar to the idea of process vs. product. I have always been a process person.
Being driven to create is a blessing and a curse. It is so wonderful to have the ability to make stuff. Taking an idea and making a concrete representation of that idea seems miraculous. However, the compulsion to go, go, go all the time can be annoying. There are days when it is difficult to relax because my creative drive is revving like a motor out of control. It can be exhausting.


Sunday, March 23, 2008

Nature and ART

In order to rid myself of a bad case of the self absorbed “boo hoos”, I have turned to my second interest: Science. I have been watching videos that have been created by scientists who speak a language of their own. My language consists of colors, lines, textures, etc. These scientists speak in English, but have their own vocabulary and threads of thought. After watching a few, my mind starts to spin, literally. I remember when I was a little girl, I would come home from Catholic school and think about heaven. I would lay on my bed and try to VISUALIZE the universe. I wanted my mind to sculpt it into a shape and have it take a form. I pictured a cube containing our solar system surrounded by other universes. All of this was enclosed in a cube like form. Everything outside the cube was pure white light. I guess in my childish mind, the white light represented heaven holding the cube in billowing, nebulous, soft arms. Eventually, I would jump up and stop thinking about all this. I realized it made my head HURT.
So much art is inspired by nature. Science and art are two disciplines which are like fraternal twins. I see this kinship and have always loved to learn about our world and other worlds. I love thinking. I love being challenged and intellectually stimulated. I absolutely love listening to scientists speak.
Even though it makes my head hurt, AGAIN!
I have no more to say about this video reference.
It can speak for itself.
Speaker: Alan Watts

Saturday, March 22, 2008

Sunday, March 9, 2008

Art BLOG: Wide Eyed Sheree

I just have to laugh and laugh today. I woke up with a better spirit. As you know, I have been a bit moody (to say the least). Recently, I have been experiencing the “black bile” syndrome, melancholia, or the modern day term depression. They are all one and the same. This is nothing new. It comes and goes. I have to do the dance to shake it off. Last night while reading art blogs, I read Mad William. He is experiencing the same malady. I am sure we are two of millions out there. I made a comment to him about understanding. I didn’t give advice because I know how that goes when you are in a MOOD. I did tell him I was trying to “Fake it until I make it!” I am really doing that.
After writing about Otto yesterday, I was so excited to see his new video up this morning. I watched it and just smiled. He is still all aglow about his art and his upcoming show. He described the trip to the studio this morning. He is high on life. I thought about this. I can be very high on life. In fact, there is very little grey area with me. I am either in the clouds or in a self dug hole. Such is life.
I went about my happy business today. I was so chipper and alert. I got my tax receipts all sorted out. I straightened up some art stuff. I ate very healthy. I cheerfully looked outside at the sun and the new sprouts emerging. Before making dinner, I sat down to read email. I noticed one of my favorite videographers had a new vid up. Her name is Syd. She does WONDERFUL videos. She is not an artist per se. However, she is artful and creative in everything she does with the camera.
In the video linked below, she speaks of continuing a series by another videographer, CallMeHol. CALL did a series called "Twenty-one Days of Beauty", This series can be found at CallMeHol on LiveVideo
I am accustomed to watching Syd’s works of video. I am never disappointed. This offering is the first in a seven part series about what she sees as BEAUTY. What a wonderful concept. Also, it is so timely. Just last night, I caught myself laughing in the car. A little 4ish year old girl walked in front of me carrying a huge purse (Mom's hand me down?). It had large gold sequins on it flipping in the wind. I smirked and giggled as she walked past. She was so proud of herself and her self esteem shined right along with the sequins! I saw the beauty in this experience. Syd's vids will allow me to share beauty through her eyes. This is such a great way for me to remember to keep my eyes open wide. Joy is here.. I just have to see it.

SYD'S video: #1 of her BEAUTY series.

Saturday, March 8, 2008


What is this world coming to???
No further comment

If any of you are Project Runway fans, I have to tell you…
I would rather have had the designer of this dress win PR this season instead of CHRISTIAN.
That decision really made me want to puke!

Bright Eyed Ambition

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Friday, March 7, 2008

Art Blog: She is BACK!!!

Sheree just can’t be quiet!
OK, so I told myself to just be quiet. This was meant both literally and figuratively. I have to be honest. I am overwhelmed right now. I just can’t do everything I want to do because it is just too much to think about and takes too much time to accomplish. When I reach this emotional status, I tend to shut down when I am on overload. I just can’t cope. So be it.
So I was quiet for a few days. However, I saw a post on another art blog that made me twitch. It speaks of the “looming apocalypse”. It goes on to tell of the demise of art. WELL, I just laughed. It reminded me of big headlines in art magazines in the 70's that proclaimed "PAINTING IS DEAD!!" Art isn’t going anywhere. Now I realize after reading the post, the words speak of the weakening of the arts within the SYSTEM. Be it governmental, organizational, political, or the “I know you and you know me” network, there are many ways the arts tend to be inserted in organizational art world "cubbies".
The author may be right in regard to her “cubby” of interest. However no matter what the status quo is, ART will be here. It always will. Yes, the high art, auction based, big deal, hedge funds type art might be in danger. I don’t care about that. In fact, I ask “Who Cares?” This has nothing to do with my ART WORLD.
This author has a different point of view. I look and think about art as a cultural entity. I think of art as a life source. I think of art that will be made regardless of the financial climate. I think of artists making art just BECAUSE.
It has been this way from the beginning of human existence. People will make art. Human beings will express themselves via creative activity. We have all been privileged to experience and witness the results of this “no strings” commitment. Aren’t we lucky? We know for sure these lost artists worked for the sake of working. Even now I think of folk artists or the cultural work of various indigenous peoples. They create to create. They worked without the possibility of a financial gain. They made their work without the idea of aiming for a NY exhibition. They just created. I have to think about this. Of course we live now. We think of art as a product. It is like artists make "pretty widgits". We do have to pay the bills. Yet, it is sad the concept of art for art sake is so foreign during these times.

So will art ever really die?
Click to go to the article which prompted this response. If the exact post doesn't come up, scroll down to the 2/28/08 post.

Saturday, March 1, 2008


I am suffering from a bad case of techno OVERKILL right now. I am still here. However, I am dazed and confused at the moment. This feeling is akin to the reason why I can’t go to the circus or a broadway musical. There is just too much visual, mental, and emotional stimuli. Therefore, I have decided to be quiet for a little while. Be back soon, I hope.

Shhhhhh Sheree