Tuesday, July 8, 2008
Art Blog: Let it Go!
What a frigin mess!!
Look at this. I created this painting a few years ago. I have been thinking about this that LONG. Get over it Sheree!
Blonderexic. Yep. That describes me. I have always had LONG, bleach blond hair, except for 1988 when I cut it all off and dyed it red. That didn’t last long. I went right back to my old ways. My real hair is still dishwater blond. Nondescript. Dark blond mixed with light blond, mixed with grey now. It isn’t worth a look. This is why I continue to BLEACH.
Then, there is the length. I have always hid behind my hair. It is a veil of protection from the big, bad world. It all started as a form of rebellion. My mother always condemned me and voiced opinions about my coif. It was far too long for a person so short. My face was always covered. It just wasn’t right. Well you can tell I listened her, NOT. I have kept it the same way for 40+ years. LOL LOL
It is time. I have to do something. I measured my hair the other day. It was at 30” from my crown to my waistband. I almost had it cut the other day. I stood silent in front of the salon window. “I am going in!” “Yes, I am going in, now!” I didn’t’. SO………………I have been doing some kind of intervention on myself. Every time I wash my hair, I cut off an inch. I have cut off 8” so far. I want to get it up to my shoulders. Even though I want short hair, I just can’t do it all at once.
This all seems too freaky to me. I have to get over it. I am done. All this hair makes me crazy now. I am tired of picking up long hairs all over the house and in my car. I am tired of hiding behind this mop. I have to do something. I am just a bit afraid. Even after all these years, I am too afraid to show my face to the world. This is especially true because now I am all wrinkly too! I still want to hide. There is no sense in hiding. I look old because I am getting old. Gee, go figure. I realized if I want a new life, I have to be willing to change and try new things. So before I could even put this post up, I just went to the salon and told them “Have at it!”
Hair today, Gone today!!!
Thanks, I needed that!