Saturday, December 20, 2008
Art Blog: Lone (Artist) Ranger
“Hi Ho Silver and AWAY!”
Do you remember the Lone Ranger? I do. Despite not liking TV that much when I was a child, I loved the Lone Ranger. He just seemed so cool. There was just something about him that I admired. He always galloped off all alone to fix the world.
I think of myself as being the Lone (ARTIST) Ranger. However, It is occurring to me that my solitude and misanthropy has been detrimental to my art career. I can be so withdrawn and introverted. I go to work and then come home and hide in my studio. The past few years, my agoraphobic behaviors have been in full bloom. Having only 20K miles on the odometer of an 8 year old car is starting to sound kind of sick to me. Everybody needs to unplug from the world at times. I think I disconnect too much. Lately it is getting worse.
I have wanted to reconnect with the local art scene here in St. Petersburg. For the past few months, each week I have jotted down art events and openings on my calendar. I make plans to attend. Then the day comes and I don’t go. I have no idea why I am not eager to push myself out there.
I found a call for artists for a local event next month. It sounds like fun. I read up on it. I printed the application. I walked around my studio thinking about the work I would submit. All of a sudden, my enthusiasm disappeared. I got this greedy, possessive feeling. This irrational thought came to my mind “I don’t want to sell any of this work. I WANT IT!”
LOL LOL LOL This is so silly. In fact, it goes against everything for which I truly believe about life. That is, you have to let the universal energy flow to allow new energy to come forth. It is simply a matter of out with the old and in with the new.
Another thing that would be a positive aspect of being a part of this event is I would meet new people. YIKES! Just thinking about this makes me shiver. However, just like not wanting to let go of my art, I have to let go of this self imposed isolation. It is time to move on to new things and experiences. It is time for me to realize that it is just fine to make friends.
Shoot! Even the Lone Ranger had Tonto!
Do artists really need a Tonto?