Friday, October 2, 2009

Art Blog: VIBES

Some people will read this and not have a clue what I am talking about at all. That is OK. I am speaking to those who might understand. I am a sensitive artist. I react to my environment. I take in the vibrations of the people who surround me. I can even see auras. I know, I know. This sounds so hooky, spooky. It is not. I am very aware on every sensual level and all the aspects of situations I am in at any given moment. If you don’t believe it or understand, I am sorry. It is what it is.

All through the 1980’s I lived in the “Cultural Center” of Detroit. This area of Detroit is very near downtown. It is ruddy and urban. You can’t be a sissy if you choose to live there. However, one of the wonderful things about the cultural center is the arts are glorified. Recently, I have been thinking about my current situation. I compare it to various times in my life that were very different. When I lived in Detroit, just about everyone I was associated with was either an artist or an arts advocate. It was a wonderful existence. It was a magical world. My art was supported and my status as an artist was a given. There was no question.

When I moved to Florida in 1991, I was immersed into the “real” world. Nobody I met cared about art or even knew about what art was. Then, I was hired by my current employer and things changed. Suddenly after two years of mental, spiritual, and emotional discomfort, I finally had people who understood who I was and what I did. It was a wonderful situation and I felt all the good VIBES.

I continued to work in this environment for the next 16 years. I went to my day job every day. I felt appreciated and valued. The arts were special and I have been there to provide this component of life into the environment. I did a great job too.

Now things have changed. I am having flashbacks to 1992. My current environment does not support ART. The auras I see around people surrounding me are monochromatic and scary. This is so uncomfortable; I am having a difficult time accepting the status quo. However, I know the vibrations I feel and see will change. I just need to work to change my situation. If I do that, the vibes will change too.




Things are shaking right now. (BAD VIBRATIONS) It feels out of control. I know for sure this too shall pass. In fact, I am looking for nice, quiet, peaceful vibes and glowing auras.
I will find them.
I will.

7 comments:

JafaBrit's Art said...

I get exactly what you are saying and understand. and yes YOU WILL find those peaceful vibes.

Sheree Rensel said...

Jaf,
It goes without saying you would understand. I know you just enough to know you would get it.
:-)
Sheree

namastenancy said...

Oh hon, I hear you loud and clear. One of the things that I absolutely LOVE about retirement is that I can surround myself with positive and creative people. When I worked at UCSF, I was surrounded by psychic vampires, nasty, vicious and malicious. I had to put up the psychic equivalent of the Great Wall of China just to survive. But I survived, I love my life now and I know that you will move on to the good vibe side as well.

artjas said...

Sheree I too know what your feeling. What bothers me is how Non Art people and situations can have a negative influence on what I try to create.

Sheree Rensel said...

Nancy,
EXACTLY!!! This is the first time in a very, very long time I feel like I am in this strange, anti-art land. Your words "vampires, nasty, vicious and malicious" fit like a glove. I too am trying to close myself off in order to survive. As you know, this is really not a healthy thing either. I still have a long while before retirement. Therefore, I have to thing of another solution while hiding behind this "temporary" wall. I want to come out and interact in a more positive environment. You know?

Sheree Rensel said...

Artjas,
You know. Your words got me thinking. I have been trying to figure out why I am feeling so strongly about all this and why I feel so uncomfortable. I am wondering what is the lesson to be learned. Your comment about NON Art people effecting your creativity sent a spark through me. Oh! I totally agree. This new situation I find myself in has an effect on EVERYTHING in my life.

I feel like I am in a perpetual bad mood. I am starting to experience paranoia. All the old, childhood feelings of unworthiness are surfacing. I think my art sucks. Etc. Etc. Yes, it does effect our creativity and art lives.

HOWEVER, maybe that is the lesson here(?) Maybe we are supposed to teach ourselves to bypass and overcome this challenge(?) Maybe I am being altruistic but I see this as a great goal. If I could rise up and ignore all of it while continuing to be happy and creative, now that would be an accomplishment! :-)

JafaBrit's Art said...

shutting out those bad vibes is very hard, especially when they intrude, get in your face. In NJ the vibe was really really bad, even with other art types (not sure what it was about NJ but that was the situation). I only had one friend in NJ and what a blessing, and that is the way I wanted it there. I shut the bad vibes out and just concentrated on developing my skills, visiting new york when I could, and getting through the day. I just bided my time and it passed.