Friday, August 6, 2010

Art Blog: Social Butterfly, NOT

I am sure that you have heard or figured out for yourself that those who do well in the arts aren’t necessarily the most talented or brilliant at creating. Of course, there is some artistic quality there, but it doesn’t have to be the best (whatever that is). On the contrary, in order to be successful you have to have a wide skill set of other abilities above and beyond your creative endeavors.

I read an artist’s blog post today in which the artist expressed lament that she wasn’t a “salesperson”. She just wanted to make art. Don’t we all? However, that is unrealistic. I should know. I am a hoarder of my own art. It isn’t that I don’t want to sell, it is just that I don’t have those skills in me. Despite seeming gregarious in public, it is all an act with me. I am actually painfully shy. It is difficult for me to explain my art verbally, let alone sell it. Don’t misunderstand. I know what my art is about. I can write about it all day long, but to stand in front of a person and say the words. NOPE.

Another trait many successful artists exert is their social personality. I have mentioned before I don’t feel like I fit into my current art environment. I don’t have any art friends here. Yet, I don’t push myself out to make art friends either. There is the rub. I don’t like openings. I don’t like being in crowds. I don’t like chit chat or small talk. I guess I am doomed. LOL

So if an artist’s skill set is unbalanced, the best thing to do is to work on your weaker skills. I am never going to be the life of the party or be able to sell anybody swamp land, but I can at least try to be a little bit more social, get out to galleries more, and practice talking to people. This might sound so easy, but it will take a lot of work on my part. I am willing to make this my new goal. We will see what happens………

Will Sheree ever be a social butterfly? NO.
I just have to work with what I have and do the best I can.
Sounds like a plan.

Monday, August 2, 2010

Art Blog: Be Careful What You Wish For

This has been the strangest year and an even stranger summer. I have been diddlin away the time trying to figure out what is next for Sheree. I have done the work. I have collected data, researched, and have tons of documentation. I am ready for a change.

Finally the skies opened up. FINALLY. There was a job position open that I have yearned for the past (almost) twenty years. I thought to myself “Sheree, this is it. This is IT! The Universe is coming through for you right now!” I gathered my data, sent appropriate emails, I ironed my interview suit, I reviewed my accomplishments, and I went in there with a huge smile and enthusiasm fit for a clown on the opening night of the circus. I was ready and very willing to do whatever it took to get this job. I wanted it and wanted it bad.

I thought.

You see, when you have thoughts of what you want, they are partially dreams. Dreams aren’t real. They are an illusion. Despite accepting this rational, I forged on with bells attached. I was ready to ding dong ding! “Look at me and I promise I will be the best of the best just for you!”

I thought the interview went very well. However, there were all kinds of red flags aflying. I ignored them. I was into it. I didn’t want to pay attention to the down sides. I just wanted to make it work. I mean, this was the opportunity for change at all cost; any cost!

After the interview, I drove home a bit deflated. I knew I really didn’t want to go in this direction. However, I had already told a friend “This is either the opportunity I have always dreamed of or the Universe is sticking its tongue out at me right now waiting to say “Gottcha!!!!”.

The night after the interview, I had multiple nightmares about this potential job. I actually woke up in cold sweats. However, EGO came into play. At that point, I wanted the job for two reasons. It would offer me a new experience and I could say I got the job (even though I didn't want the job, but EGO is a powerful thing!) That next morning I wrote a thank you email despite sending a handmade thank you card snail mail. At that point, I was into doing the right thing. Even though my authentic self was screaming at me “NO NO NO Sheree! NO!!!!” I thought “I am into it now, so I have to just go full tilt.” After sending that last email, I sat and waited. What will be will be.

The next morning I woke up and took the dog outside. I came back in and logged on to my email. I got a response: “I have decided to recommend another candidate for the position.” My first reaction as I looked at those words was “WHAT????????????????”. However less than 5 seconds later, I thought “Thank God!!”

No the Universe didn’t play a trick on me at all. It allowed me to hear and experience the realities of my dream job. It showed me in full color that this is not a job I want at all. This isn’t even the direction I should be looking. Just like always, the Universe has taken care of me. It reminded me that I should just have faith and things will always work out. It always does and always will. In the meantime, I wish the candidate hired lots of luck and I hope they love the job. I hope it is just right for them!

“Found Faith”
Sheree Rensel
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